Expansion Through Our Creativity
Art is a nonverbal form of communication with your higher self. It allows you to explore aspects of yourself as you bypass the filtering mechanism of the ego. It’s a gateway to your inner voice.
Creativity has become a lifeline to the natural state of being - a soul creator.
When I was a young girl, drawing was my go-to that allowed me to escape from the insecurities I felt in my family life. It helped me to forget for a small measure of time the chaos and dysfunction surrounding me as I merged with my drawings. I attended the High School of Art & Design in New York City where I felt very much out of place with the need to have to compete with others since that is what the school system promotes, and found that I couldn’t freely explore my abilities there because of the restrictions placed on you and the bullying that I received from some of the students who just wanted to take their own emotionally unbalanced coping mechanisms out on specific targets.
School only promotes a stark left brain process where it’s hard to connect to that intuitive access to the creative zone. For a while after graduating, I attended The Art Students League for nude drawing and anatomy which I did enjoy. However, trying to figure out how to take a right brain ability and introduce it into a left brain, logical minded society put me at a loss. And I didn’t much believe in the “starving artist” route. It just didn’t agree with me. I had taken Fashion drawing and design as my major while attending Art & Design, but that industry also did not appeal to me. After that I felt compelled to switch to video production while attending Parsons’ School of Design. I kept on receiving this “push” to explore that medium, especially since I did have a natural love of film.
Many years have passed and I find now that I’ve been “pushed” yet again, this time to painting, and at first I just couldn’t find my niche, so to speak. Representational art, unless I’m drawing, just didn’t seem to do it for me. I just didn’t have a flair for it when using paint. I sensed that I should be going deeper and allowing whatever needed to come out to do so with the chosen tools I felt called to use. After all, giving a voice to our consciousness brings an expansion, as opposed to remaining locked into the physical world around us. Of course, there is the appreciation of the beauty that is found all around us, but I was sensing that I was looking for something more. Something that is beneath the surface of things and not the object itself. When we create we are molding a reality, drawing on an energetic signature that we have no idea where it will take us, and pulling it out.
I had a breakthrough point after a spiritual healing that finally led me to a technique that gave me the fluid freedom to create. I found that a liquid pour technique helped me to open up more, allowing me to bypass the critical regions of thought and create a deeper stream of consciousness that ultimately flows out onto the canvas. And then many other techniques showed up as I used color and form to allow the free flow of intuition to just be. There are moments when I catch myself criticizing what I’m doing - while I’m doing it. Whether it’s a certain color I’ve chosen or how it poured onto the surface of the canvas. Your thoughts can drive you crazy at times. But, little by little I’m allowing myself to just be in the moment. Practicing being in the present. That’s the journey. Just experiencing the feel of it all at that present moment.
